How Did You Know That Something Was Wrong?

This is a question that came up in my radio interview yesterday, and it really got me thinking! How did I know that Sophie has passed away… because I knew before I got to the hospital; I was convinced that, although I had been there 3 times during that week for the same thing, I knew that on this occasion they wouldn’t find a heartbeat, I just knew that she had died.

I do strongly believe that I had a ‘gut’ feeling on the lead up to her death, and I also feel that women should be listened to much more if they feel there is a problem… it’s just an inbuilt feeling which is hard to explain; women are very in tune with their bodies and very often they just ‘know’.

On that particular morning, when the movements had stopped and I had a ‘heavy’ sensation in my belly, I ‘knew’, and I didn’t rush to the hospital as I couldn’t bare to have it confirmed. I tried my home doppler and all I heard was an empty silence, no blood rushing through the placenta, no heartbeat… nothing… just silence. And I just ‘knew’.

Paul was trying to remain positive and it just broke my heart, because I knew that in a few hours his world would come crashing down; the children had no idea that there was a problem and that shattered my heart as I knew that I would have to tell them that their much longed for sister had passed away. My parents and Paul’s parents were so looking forward to Sophie’s birth… and I knew how devastated they would be when we told them.

So, in answer to this question, I just ‘knew’, I didn’t want to be right but I knew I was. How did you know that something was wrong? Were there any signs or symptoms? Or was it just a ‘gut feeling’?

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Petition and Media Attention Update

Hello Everyone

Thank you so much for all the support you have shown so far! I am overwhelmed but there is still a long way to go! Just thought that I would give you a quick update so that you all know what is happening…

As you know Sophie’s Story has been in the mirror twice which has really helped to push the petition, we have also been in the Kent Messenger Newspaper recently and had a very supportive letter from the House of Commons; I have been contacting people to try to gain more publicity and have now been invited to join the ‘All Party Parliamentary Group on Baby Loss’ in The Houses of Parliament in Westminster, this is an amazing opportunity, and it means that our voices will be heard! Yesterday I had an interview with BBC Radio Kent which went really well too.

If you can then please share the link to the petition again! It would mean so very much to gain as much support as possible! Thank you… and don’t forget to ask others to share too!!! https://you.38degrees.org.uk/petitions/cut-stillbirth-rates-by-half

Awareness: Please like the Sophie’s Angels – Raising Awareness Facebook page if you can.
Support: If you have been affected by stillbirth, miscarriage or infant death, then please feel free to join the Sophie’s Angels Support Group.

Thank you so much for your continued support

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